another day in the life.....

well...some more shit has hit the fan. i just found out yesterday that my mom has decided to hire a lawyer and get a divorce w/the ass from hell. that's good news. but the bad news is is that it's not going to be easy of course. earl is already being an ass about the whole thing, once he figured out that all his feeble pleas and promises weren't going to work this time. so mom tells me that her friend she works w/is moving in w/a friend, and she is going to leave her utilities on for mom and i guess we are moving to her house. it's over on 23rd and byers. of course earl is putting up a fight about the whole thing, and it's starting to get me depressed again. my mom is crying every night because earl won't leave her alone and accept the whole thing. i want to drive a truck right into earl and kill him, but then i realized that i wont be of much good to my mom spending 20 in prison being some guy's bitch by the name of Leroy. so instead, ive just been telling mom to stick to her guns and just keep telling him how it is. he's been promising the same old shit again like "oh honey ill get two jobs and blah blah blah, shit shit shit" which is what he promised her after he fucked around on her last time. and he's not doing what he promised anyway. soooooo....it's all a big mess. doesnt it just feel like life serves you a big scoop of cow dung and it takes forever to get the mess cleaned up? im sure jama feels me on that one a little bit. i hope things are going ok w/her.

but i just keep trying to look on the bright side of the whole thing. once earl is really gone and out of our lives, we can start over. if i get the job at General Mills ( and i hope jama does too cause that would be the schiznit) then mom and i can make it with no problem. i wont have to worry about her being hurt (not physically of course but mentally) by some asshole. actually, she did meet a guy that she kinda likes, but she said that she might just go out w/him. she said that she wont let another man move in with her. it's her bosses son. he's really cool. his wife died 2 years ago. he's been in the military, he doesnt smoke, drink or do anything. he's really christian (cause his mom, or my mom's boss, is a preacher, kinda scary but that's another story), so im happy about that. plus, mom is going to go back to college next year. all she needs is one more year and she will have her bachelors degree in psychology, then she can get a good paying job. so...i just try to keep thinking about all the good and what-not and hope it will all be over soon.

wow, ive said enough for one entry i think. cause im sure everyone is tired of me rambling. but hey, i had to get it out. as long as ive got my friends i know i can get through this.

tj