all_but_plaid

Music has gotten pretty ridiculous here lately. Have you heard some of the things that play on the radio? Give me a break! lol Seriously, what happened to just good old fashioned rock music or just some nice alternative bands? I'm not saying it all sucks per say, just more than most. I did find this one band called We Three Kings, they toured with Metro Station. I thought they were kinda cool. I like Metro as well...they remind me of an old 80's band, somethin' like The Cars, I dunno o.O I also found a new j-rock band, well I'm not sure how new they actually are, but I'm calling them new since I just discovered them lol. They are called LM.C, and they are awesome!

Anyway, otherwise everything else has been going fairly well. My sister is still living in OKC with my dad, it seems to be going ok. She started in school down there and she picked up a part-time job as well, and I guess she is handling it all ok. I got hired at General Mills. They pay flippin awesome and the cool thing is, is that if you want to go back to school then they will pay up to 6000 dollars every semester, so I thought that was pretty cool. Plus they have benefits out the whazoo lol.

Well I think I'm gonna call it a night. I miss you guys (Sara and Jama respectively) lol. Hope everything is going ok for you guys.

Kamui

wow it's been a while since ive updated. my sincere apologies everyone lol. welp where should i start? ive been working out at general mills for about 2 weeks. it's going pretty good. i need an evaluation and ill be on the list to get hired. i think you start out at 13 an hour so that's not too bad, and i was told they offer quite a few incentives that make it that much more worth working out there.

amber and i are dating again. it's going pretty well. im still trying to get past the whole transition from being best friends to going out with eachother, but it's coming along ok.

come next fall i plan on starting back at school, which i forgot to mention the fact that general mills will pay for as long as you keep good grades.

so...about 3 weeks ago we all wake up to find a note from my sister saying she has left and isnt coming back. -.- that has been an ordeal all in it's own. so i think im going to leave it at that. she's now in OKC with my grandma and dad living there, so now we at least know where she's at. if anyone wants to know details gimme a call sometime. it would take about an hour to type everything i have to say about that situation.

erica's b-day is coming up. i got her the coolest present known to man. i would say what it is, but im afraid she will read this before her b-day, sorry all.

welp, i think that's it. overall, life is going fair right now. there's been a lot of days where it has been really hard to get out of bed and face the world. but im kinda expected to keep the strong face so that's what i do. i ask myself every now and then however....is everything in life going to be this hard? it's like you get in these ruts where you cant ever catch a break, and when one thing does go right, two things go wrong. it gets depressing sometimes i guess. but you get through it and move on. it could be worse i suppose.

i guess i ended this with a depressing note...sorry bout that.


kamui

today has been ok. wow it's been awhile since ive updated. i got my car fixed...for the most part. the alternater went out, so i got that fixed, but then the belt started squeaking like no other, so im going to have to have that addressed.

been working like 60 hours a wk....minimum. but im catching up on bills so it's all good. im thinkin about changing jobs though. my dad told was telling me that they are hiring escorts for those wide load vehicles, and they pay like 20 bucks an hour. i figure id do that for a while and save some monies, and id like to buy a house.

all in all, life is ok right now.

kamui

If you could travel back in time to spend a day with someone, who would it be and why?

If I had to pick just one person to travel back in time to spend a day with, I guess it would have to be Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart. I know, it's one of those people that someone would go, "oh everyone picks that person". But hey, I would love to travel Vienna with him, see him conduct a performance, watch him in his magnificence. There would be so many questions I would have I wouldn't know where to begin. If he had time, I would ask him to give me a violin lesson (I play the violin), just thirty minutes if he could spare it. It would be the highest honor imaginable. But yeah, that would be the person I would like to meet.

i went to the casino last night. i watched this lady on this machine for 20 minutes. she had played like 30 bucks and didnt win anything, so when she got up i hopped on it, i played a couple of spins, and guess what? i won 140 bucks! i was excited. so i went to walmart and i found me a lamp for my room, and i also found these really cool pictures that were for only 5 bucks a piece, so i got those. now all i need to get is a chair of some kind. not a bad day i would say.

=kamui=

today was very productive. i got my room all unpacked and put up, so now it doesnt look like i just had a garage sale in my room. i bout that guitar hero game. flippin awesome! i played it last night for 2 hrs. i only stopped because my left hand went numb. i have carpel tunnel in my lefty so it's not hard lol.
ericas b-day was yesterday. i met her and her family at the olive garden, which is always good. then we went and played bingo. we sat across from a couple of old ladies that were pretty funny. we didnt win anything but it was still fun. chris and steph came to the casino so erica stayed a while longer and played. i think erica had a fun b-day o.O?
anyway, if anyone doesnt know, i got a new truck. it's really nice! its a 07 dodge dakota. i really like it. i never thought i would have something that new and that nice. im going to baby the crap outta it!
i feel like my life is lacking something. i dunno, excitement i suppose one would call it? but how exciting is joplin? not very, so i guess that's a lose situation. but all in all, life right now has been pretty good. ive gotten all my debt payed off. so my credit is free and clear and no more bill collectors calling and harassing, which is a really nice feeling. like a great big weight being taking off your shoulders. now i need to figure out a way to start getting my credit score up.
welp, i guess that's all for now. granmda just made a cake and it smells really good. im going to go and eat half of it.

=kamui=

so...this week and the last couple of weeks have been pretty crazy. erica got out of the hospital for the third time. i hope that was the last. i dont think erica can take another stay in the hospital lol. she threatened to go cabin fever the last time she was in there. i guess i worry about her more than i should. it's just that i look at the situation at hand, and i find myself completely helpless. i can't do anything about it, and it sucks.

my friend josh called me out of the blue the other day. he, tyler, erica and i went and hung out today. we played some pool at j-town. i really wish he would make up his mind whether or not he wants to remain friends. i havent heard from him in about 2 or 3 months and now he's wanting to hang out. he said his mom still feels really bad about what happened, and she should. he said she wont talk about it, which means she's feeling like shit about it. i told him to tell her though that it's water under the bridge now. i dunno.

i guess amber is having some problems now. she has some sists on her ovaries that are giving her a little bit of trouble. she's looking into having to go to kansas city and getting them removed. i told her that i can only handle one friend with a medical crisis at a time lol. but i dont think it's anything too serious. oh they finally found out what her brother is having, it's going to be a girl. amber is so excited. she's already out looking for ladybug outfits lol.

so...micheala ran away last night. it scared us half to death. the sheriff picked her up near 20th and shifferdecker. that's a big story in itself right there, so ill just leave it at that.

i guess that's all the news i got for now. i really hope things start looking better. ive noticed myself getting kinda depressed lately. what with my mom being stressed about my sisters and the neighbors and getting financing for a house. im starting to get tired really fast, and i find myself with absolutely no motivation for anything. i think i would just lay in my bed all day if i could, but i know that's not the practical thing to do. i guess when life throws you curve balls, you catch them and figure out what to do with them the best way you know how. it'll get better im sure. until then, you count your blessings and live life.

=kamui=

ok...i like to play bingo, i like talking to the people around me, but i HATE losing! every damn time! lol its all good though, i look at it this way, if i didnt win, then i still played for 3 hrs on 10 bucks. there was this guy that we sat across from though that had these little pieces of paper, and every ten or twenty minutes, he'd throw one at us (not literally), and they were little scenes of matt amanda and myself. it was awesome. this guy really knew how to draw. i wish amber was there, she would've really appreciated it.

so..ive applied at a couple of different places. im just seeing what i could possibly get. like i said, i dont really want to quit papa johns, but i do. at any rate, ill definately give my 2 wks if i do anything.

erica is supposed to be getting her car in a few days. im excited for her. she was so bummed when she learned that she may have had to get a different car. i guess when you've had a car for so long you develop an attachment to it. your car is almost a part of you in a sense. but she gets to keep it so that's cool. i dont mind driving her around of course, but im sure she wants her car lol. its kinda nice being able to be the one giving the rides and not bumming them off people all the time hehe

anyway, that's about all for today. mom and bobby have the court hearing today with the loonies, i hope this swings our way. i dont see why it wont, but you never know.

=kamui=

welp, the concert was a blast. we finally saw dir en grey! it was cool to see how many people there were at the concert, so you know that you arent the only j-rocker fan out there lol. we were talking to people in the waiting line, and they actually new what we were talking about, unlike the people here that are like, "der...what's j-rock?". these peeps new what we meant, it was awesome.
i got to see my family in okc for a day. that was really nice, cause i hadnt gotten to see them since the summer before last. my grandmas driving has gotten even scarier since last i was down there lol. overall, the trip was great.
erica's kitty had to go into surgery yesterday. everything went well though, which im glad for. i like how erica is one of those people who actually CARES about her animals. most people i know couldnt give a flying fig about their pets. but she really loves her kitties. it's a very cool thing.
i really dont feel like going into work today, then again, erica brought up a point that i guess i didnt realize. she said that i never want to go to work or i want to go in late if i can or leave early. the truth is, she's right. i mean i like the people i work with (for the most part hehe) and the job itself isnt hard at all. i think it's just the whole working around pizza that is just really unmotivating. ive worked off and on at cici's for about 4 years, and i guess im just burnt out from it. im considering looking for a different line of work. express personel called me the other day and she told me they were looking for bank tellers at different banks. it sounded really tempting, i mean for one, it looks really nice on a resume, and two, it gets me out of food.
but again, the prob im running into is that i love working with erica and everyone else there. well, there are a couple of people i could live without lol, but overall i like the people, just not the job. i think ill talk to erica about it and see what she thinks. i really dont want to quit, but im just so burnt out on the food business. we'll see.

=kamui=

so quite a bit has happened in just the short amount of time that has passed. i took erica to kansas city the other day. she had a consultation with a doctor. i wont say on here, im not sure if she wants everyone knowing her business. i was happy to take her up there though, for one, so i could test out how my NEW CAR!#!!!!!!! Eeee!!!! would do. yes folks, i finally got a car, and it's freakin sweet. someone did some stuff to it though, it has really nice rims and i just found out that the kind of tires it has on there are worth 140 bucks a pop! wow! but of course they are b/c they are japanese brand tires. only the best for my baby.
anyway, papa johns is going pretty well. my boss was asking me if i would condsider being a shift manager. it sounds nice and i appreciate the offer, but erica has been telling me that some people there dont do the things they should when closing. i guess its over the fact that they've never had to do these things in the first place. she told me that a couple of them have literally refused to do something. that kind of stuff wouldnt fly with me. and i dont want to make enemies with anyone there, i like everyone i work with, except for a couple of select people, mainly chris fucking ellsworth!!! that guy is a boil on the butt of humanity and must be destroyed. anyway i digress.

anyway, school is going much better this semester, all except my biology class, im kinda struggling in that class. but i think ill pull through.

just a few more days and erica and i are going to dallas!!!!1 woot!! im so excited to see this concert, and im also excited about seeing my family. i cant wait for erica to see oklahoma city, it's so awesome there. they have just about anything you can think of.

well, my stomach says im hungry, so i must reply. that's all for now i guess. oh yeah, i also like this girl at work, and im hoping she likes me to. erica, being the best friend she is, is helping me along with this. but there is one thing we disagree on. she thinks i should give her something for v-day and i dont. i just think it's too personal right now. she still wants to get to know me a little better, and i the same. i just think that it would make her feel obligated or something, to have to go out with me b/c i got her something.

alright, that's all for now.

=kamui=

wow, today was kind of a shocker. im at amber's house hanging out, when mom calls me. she said that my boss denise called looking for me. mom said she sounded really upset. well...my first thought was oh no what did i do? lol so i call her and she's like, we have to talk, you can come here or i can just tell you. i said am i in trouble? she said no.....we are losing our lease for the space, our last day is sunday. i was like what! this couldn't have come at a worse time. im trying to save for this dallas trip, trying to get a new car, and get some bills paid. so i came in for her for a couple of hours, she had to go home. when i got there, she was in tears. i didnt blame her. anyway, so im thinking oh my god what am i going to do? well..i had a thought. i called erica up and asked her if papa johns was hiring. i told her what happened and everything, so she said she'd call her boss and see what she could do. so she finally called me back later and told me that her boss patrick would hire me. i just have to go in and apply and go through the interview and everything, but she said it was pretty much a sure thing. i swear, it was like this huge weight lifted lol. cause i was thinking, how long is it going to take to find another job? i was so happy she got me in. but now the only thing im kinda worried about is, are they going to let both erica and i have the same days off to go to that concert? i forgot to ask erica that, but i will tomorrow. we are going to the college tomorrow, she has to clear something up and i have to get enrolled. i hope her date with this patrick guy goes well. she really likes this guy i think. ive been kinda giving her crap, but i am really happy that she met someone.

welp, that's about it for today. time for sleep

=kamui=

Wowza! it's been forever since ive posted anything. to be truthful, i forgot that i still had an account on this. it's nice updating though.

anyway, i guess the biggest news ive got right now is erica and i are hopefully going to see the Dir En Grey concert in dallas, texas. erica's ecstatic about it. she's threatening to bike the whole way there lol..cause that's our main hurdle at the moment: transportation. but i dont think we are going to have to worry about that because my stepdad is supposed to be getting a settlement from his fathers estate, and he's pretty sure he's going to get it on the 11th or 12th of january. ive got a couple of cars picked out right now, i hope they are still there by the time we go to buy one. i told erica not to count wholly on that though, that we still need to be prepared if i dont get my car in time.

x-mas was great. my biggest present was my new laptop. i was so excited when i got it. it's really cool..and really fast. and the best part is, is that i can get wireless internet from the power plant next to us. so i dont have to pay for internet. and it's fast too which sweetens the pot of course! :)

grandma jan gave us a scare the other day. it was the day before i think...she was at work and i guess got a really bad pain in her stomach and collapsed and passed out on the floor. my uncle rushed her to the hospital, and by that time she was starting to feel better. they ran every test in the book just to be safe and let her go. she's fine so far. it just really scared us. especially mom. she's so afraid of losing grandma, as am i. but she's a tuff ol' bird.

so...i heard jama got mugged coming from work and shot in the leg. i guess erica heard it from natasha, and she told me. so i called her mom and her mom was like "i didnt hear anything about that. you heard it from erica? oh she's prob. just making it up." but i assured kathy that erica wouldnt lie about such things, which of course she didnt believe me. but i digress. anyway, she called out to LA and talked to that ryan guy's mom, and his mom said that nothing like that happened. so i was really glad to hear that. im just pissed off though: why would someone tell such a lie? i mean what's the point? just to get everybody in hysterics! lol well it did the trick.

i was working at romancing the stone for a while, until i got...fired. lol i couldnt believe it. i was just like "wow...i got fired" 1st time ever. what it mainly boiled down to was the bitch manager wanted to keep me through the x-mas season. and that's cool an all i guess, but what really pissed me off was the fact that i heard from someone that i was getting fired that day. so i confronted my manager about it, and was like hey if i am getting fired that's one thing, but you dont go around telling everybody, that's embarrassing, and extremely unprofessional. so i plan on calling corporate on her about that. it's kinda mean, but what she did wasnt saintly either, so id say we would be even.

welp, that's about it. i hope everyone had an awesome x-mas. stay safe!

=kamui=

i went and saw Final Desination 3 with my frind Steph. it was alright. it was just like the other two. they were advertising a Scary Movie 4, i wanna see that. tomorrow im singing in the choir at the church my grandma and i started going to. i didnt get the chance to practice the music, so ill do that before we leave. the cool thing is, is that we can use our music when we sing, so it's not so bad. and we have a rehearsal before we perform, so i think ill be ok. then around 7, im going to play bingo with Amanda, Erica, and possibly Noah. Erica wasn't sure if he could come or not. i think a chick we work with named Melissa is also going. i think erica will like her and amanda. they are pretty cool people. so yeah, that's all for now. time for sleep.

=kamui=

i just have to say that i officially LOATHE Palace! and im deleting it from my system. the people that come in there now are completely self-absorbed and ignorant. they make it impossible to have a civilized, intellectual conversation with those who would still like to. i cant believe it came to that.

but otherwise, the day has went pretty well. just had to get a little bit of ranting out before i pick up the cat and throw her out the window.

=kamui=

wow...it's been a while since i last updated. ive been so busy lately that im lucky if i get to check my email once every two weeks. so yeah.

well where do i begin? in case no one knows, my mom is engaged to a really nice guy, it's her bosses son. his name is bobby. he's a really good guy and im really happy that she finally found someone who wants to take care of her. mom got a divorce from "the other". he lives somewhere up by st.louis. mom and bobby are wanting to buy a house down in Seneca and live there, i guess it's cheaper to buy a house down there or something but im happy nonetheless.

as for me, im working at Celltron Inc. in galena. im hoping that jama will come and work there. she requested that i snag her and app. for her to fill out, so im going to do that tomorrow. im getting so tired of working, i went ahead and took on a weekend job out at a place called jasper products. it's 12 hour shifts, so that's 24 hours a weekend, and 64 hours a week. the check that i get for the weekends are going to nothing but my credit cards and some other stuff. i want to get my bills paid completely by the time i start college in the fall. i just want to have that peace of mind starting college and knowing that i dont have any bills other than the necessary. im not quite sure what im going for, but im sure that ill figure it out soon enough.

u know? it always seems like that when i have a few things going good for me, my friends' luck starts to decline a little bit. i guess jama is having a few problems and so is erica and amber and a few other people. i wish i could help, mostly with the financial part of their probs., but that is still one issue that im having difficulties in myself.

mom and bobby are moving out sometime in may or june, maybe july, i dunno. sometime around then. but i really dont want to move with them. seneca is a little too far to drive when you work in galena and go to school in joplin. i had talked with jama about moving in with me, but she doesnt want to give up her cats. which is completely understandable. i almost cried when i gave my dog Sable up. she's like my kid. but you know, you just have to do what you have to do. those cats are jama's family and i dont want to make her give them up unless she is certain that she is making the decision herself and not for my sake of having a room mate.
so erica has been talking to me about moving in, she said that she would like to move out around the same time my mom is, just to have some space. she's not sure though, so it's still a toss up. but whatever. you know, if erica and jama could get along well enough, i would think it would be sweet if the three of us could get a three bed. apt. together. we all used to mesh well together i think. but im sure it will never happen, but one can always dream cant they?

my trying to quit smoking is going fairly well. i have went all day and only smoke 3 cigarettes, as opposed to my close to a pack a day. im just weening myself off them. i tried cold turkey, but that didnt go over too well lol. the first day i tried, i almost side-swiped someone coming out of the parking lot at the apts. I had to stop and buy a pack lol.

so...i think that is the sum of what's been happening in my "exciting life" lol. but im off to bed. i have work tomorrow. hmm...seems like ive been using that phrase quite a bit here lately. but im getting things accomplished and it feels real good.

=kamui=

guess what? i went to play pool this evening at 4th St. Bowl...and i was walking past the games. and guess what they have in there....Para Para Dance...i was like, "hmm....a certain someone i know will be excited to hear about this"...they know who they are, so there it is.

anyway, work has been ok. i was really happy and sad at the same time about erica leaving CEC. im sure she will find something better. but otherwise, nothing new has really happened. so i guess ill be going now.


=kamui=

I shall seek and find you...
I will make you ache, shake and sweat until you moan and groan.
I will make you beg for mercy...beg for me to stop.
I will exhaust you to the point that you will be relieved when I'm finished with you.
You will be weak for days.

Sincerely,
The Flu


....hehe, had you going there for a sec didnt i?

=kamui=

well today was very exhausting. i got up at 8 this morning and started baking those cheesecakes for the potluck dinner at work. they came out ok, but i dont think i put enough cream cheese in, but they still tasted alright. then i met erica, keys, and her sexy whom i would like to get to know better friend, wendy, at cici's around 11 for lunch. erica invited jama but didnt think she would show, but she did. i think there was some slight tension, but jama kept it in, good for her!! the keys guy is very artistic, what i wouldnt give to be able to draw like that. and wendy, is just SHAZAAM!!! i want to definately hang out with her again. but away from splurging about wendy....for the moment, hehe. so we ate then i had to run to walmart for a few choice things, then went to work. we had this "all-hands" meeting, meaning everyone, and the big wig guy was basically telling us to watch what we say through a story in the Bible. i kinda felt like i was in sunday school again. then after work, me, steph, and my cousin went and saw Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. it was great, a little off the wall, but still great.

so that was my day, prob. the most exciting day ive had in a while, kinda pathetic, but oh well, that's my life for ya. things will get better. after all.....they cant get any worse....can they?...o.O

and NOW!!!!!.........off to bed........

=kamui=

well...this week has been interesting. there was a fight at work today between two fat chicks. we were outside at our smoke break, and this chick comes outside and gets up in the face of the chick sitting next to me, so she stands up, and they are in eachother's faces for a few minutes, and then, SHOOM!!, they are at it. they're on the ground pulling eachother's hair. it was awesome, until some of the other girls were pulling them off each other. one got suspended and the one that started the fight got fired. so yeah, it was an interesting night. my supervisor asked me if i wanted a few hours of overtime tomorrow so i was like yeah when do i come in? he said 5 in the morning and walked off. i was like ahhh!!! i didnt know it was that early. but it's only 4 hours. however, i cant seem to sleep, so i guess im just going to stay up till i have to go to work, then crash for like 12 hours when i get home.

erica and i were supposed to hang out tomorrow, but i guess she has to open. i was looking forward to hanging out with erica, but her boyfriend still kinda creeps me out. maybe it's because i dont know him that well yet. i shouldnt judge the book by it's cover, but sometimes it ends up happening. if erica's happy then im happy.

anyhoo, i guess that's it for now, my life's not that exciting.

=kamui=

so the opera went well...we ended up getting our tickets free from this teacher lady at OKC University. she said some of her students couldnt make it so we got the tickets, so that was awesome. then we ate at olive garden and spent about 30 minutes trying to find the right interstate back home lol.

the night before jama and her co-workers from CEC hung out at IHOP. and it was interesting. we had fun. jama and i ended up staying out a little later than we really wanted to, but overral it was ok.

ok...sara, i know just as much about this whole thing as you do...people do talk to me. yes i know jama and you are friends, i never said you were. i was the one that kept telling erica to lay off jama about you. im sure you dont believe me but what do you believe. your "friends" at mcdonalds? i could care less about what they were saying after i left that day. you really think i give a rats ass about what minimum wage making hamburger flipping grease buckets say about me? no. ive been nothing but nice the last entries, but of course like all the other times you throw it right back in my face. i know i had my faults, im not denying that. but it's not fair for you to sit there and act like nothing is your fault, so quit acting like that. grow up, have your life with your wife and be happy. starting stupid shit was middle school...lets get away from that and be big people. have a good life sara, im done with you after this entry.

i already feel much better.....